When you read OT3...

I'm curious on something. For the ex-members (with the exception of Kendra, since I've already read hers) what was your thoughts when you first read about OT3? Were in you in so deep that you thought "well that makes perfect sense", did you think you misunderstood it, were you like us outsiders when we read it and thought "what the fuck was that?" or something else?

Now if you'll excuse me, I got to go join the rest at laughing at the restraining order.

I almost read about Xenu by mistake on the internet when I was still in Scientology. Growing up, various people had warned me that if I ever came across that stuff, I'd go mad etc. Somehow when I started reading about Xenu, I knew- I just KNEW that, that was exactly what they were talking about and I freaked out a little. After a couple weeks, nothing happened so I figured I hadn't read too much.

After I left Scientology, more than a year passed before I dared to read the rest of OTIII. When I started reading I kept thinking to myself, "What the... what? Really... What???? No, that's going way too far........! No F__ing way!" After I finished reading it, I had no problem being completely withdrawn from Scientology. It's crazy to think that all those people that I used to admire so much, believe all that. Or they will once they read it. I mean really, the spaceships just happened to look like 1950s jets? That's just being lazy... (or something like that.)

when I was in there were many young scio's who of course grew up in scientology and believed in the alien thing... apparently their zealous scio parents had raised them to believe that this is their belief. I do not know if they know the details of OTIII but their belief was very similar.
This is what it is and these are the new children in the S.O. who have dedicated their lives for the cause.
I really do hope and I really do believe actually that soon scientology will cease in their ways of management, but I don't believe that many people's belief in what LRH taught will end. Churches will still be up, people won't pay to go up "the bridge to total freedom", but the whole sea org. idiotcy of management and charging people for spiritual freedom will all come to a complete end.