Irony and Stupidity and Now I'm MAD.
As far as I can tell, the main thing keeping the majority of us from speaking out or really crossing the line into "anti" is our families. We don't want them to disconnect from us (despite, in a lot of cases, them treating us like crap).
Well, I was posting publicly under my own name, but still trying to stay connected to my younger brother at Flag. I didn't want to lose him all the way, but I also am incapable of lying about how I feel and what happened. I was trying to walk a narrow line. Now he has apparently disconnected from me. I say apparently because I can't get anyone to talk to me. But he won't take my calls, or answer my letters or messages, and the last time we talked it was on this subject (with someone else listening in - I assume from dept. 3). They thought they were pretty slick but it was obvious they were trying to direct his conversation. Hello, he doesn't normally jump from subject to subject incoherently and have long silences. And maybe you shouldn't breathe in the phone. At the end of the conversation I told him he was going to be told to disconnect from me and he swore that would never happen because I'm his sister and he loves me. Right.
Now here's what's really stupid. The org just removed from me the one and only person that I cared about, the ONE reason I didn't want to get declared. Now I have NOTHING TO LOSE. My little brother was the only one I loved and felt responsible for, that had any kind of hold over me when it came to Scientology. Thanks a lot Scientologists! Way to think that through. I don't know if it was the Dir I&R FSO or OSA or whomever, but you're a MORON.
Now that I know I've lost everyone I ever cared about in Scientology, I have no reason to hold back anymore. Maybe you didn't think I WAS holding back, but now you're going to find out. Dipsh-ts.